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Why do you follow me?
Is it because of what you see?
Do you believe I am what you need me to be?
Is it because you’ve seen the man set free?
I wish to remain unseen, reduce my visibility.
I’ve conquered no enemies.
I’ve won no victories.
Unless you see what my savior sees.

He brought my death to its knees.
He came down and set me free.
Lost, now found.
Blind, now see.
Do you get what you are following?
I’m a dead man walking, He’s does the talking.
My flesh may decay away, but there are no chains on me.
If you want to follow me, find me at my saviors feet.
If you want to follow me, open your eyes to see.
I am the one following.

The light in me can live in thee.
He has no biased or proclivities.
All willing can follow my adopting King.
Adopting you as He adopted me.
Father to the father free.
Answering the orphan’s plea.
Someone please, please hold me.
Do not leave me in this captivity.
Do not turn a blind eye to me.
If you want to follow me, practice setting captives free.
If you want to follow me, open eyes to see.
I’m not the one you’re following.

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Let There Be Light

Then God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. And God saw that the light was good. Then he separated the light from the darkness. God called the light “day” and the darkness “night.” And evening passed and morning came, marking the first day. (Genesis 1:3-5 NLT)

The Word gave life to everything that was created, and his life brought light to everyone. (John 1:4 NLT)

Let there be light, why do we run from that? Light is good, yet we still want to hide. We want everyone to see our great accomplishment and keep our struggles in the dark. We want to show how great we are and our downfalls a secret. When we do this we minimize the greatness of God, we limit what Grace can cover. For Grace cannot cover what is not exposed. We want to walk with our credibility of being highly involved in the church. But we are in the dark at home! Your involvement at the church will matter very little when you face judgment, without exposure to Grace it is all excrement. To be truly exposed to Grace is to begin the process of change. You will begin to walk with integrity, and those around you will notice. When you are exposed to the sun the tone of you skin changes, the same is true with exposure to the Light (warning christian pun) or the Son. You will begin to have a spiritual tan, for lack of a better term. Lets face it, generally speaking people want the tan skin. The same is true in our lives, an exposed person with a changed tone more attractive than a hidden faker. We weren’t created to be covered by anything other than Grace. We were created to be naked and in communion with God. When people see someone who is flawed, but walking confidence of who they are, that is when they attracted to what you have. Christians will say, “I don’t want to be seen, but God thru me.” Well, that does no good! When you look at an invisible person you see nothing, not the God that’s in them. Rather than God doing such a work in me that I disappear, I want a complete exposure and covering of Grace. So when people look at me, they see the burqa of Grace that I’m covered in before they see me.

Here is where we must be careful. We cannot simply hide our sin under Grace. Grace is not meant to hide behind, but be exposed too. In Grace you are no longer who you used to be. The sinner that you’ve exposed is dead. Grace is not a simple covering, it is a renewal. A resurrection of a new man. For the death he died he died to sin, once for all, but the life he lives he lives to God. So you also must consider yourselves dead to sin and alive to God in Christ Jesus. Let not sin therefore reign in your mortal body, to make you obey its passions. Do not present your members to sin as instruments for unrighteousness, but present yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life, and your members to God as instruments for righteousness. For sin will have no dominion over you, since you are not under law but under grace. (Romans 6:10-14 ESV) Anytime come out from Grace we are trying to resurrect a dead man. Which we don’t have the power to do, so we are simply putting puppet stings on a corpse. We are going back into the grave, into darkness. Let your old man die and let the power of Grace resurrect your new man. Many of us fall into temptation because we won’t let the old die. We have exited darkness, and the enemy cannot dwell in the light. As far as he is concerned, when we go into the light we are dead. There is no longer power given the enemy. When we give into the flesh, we are poking our head into darkness and letting the enemy know we’re still alive to sin. Get into the light, be exposed. To live a life of purity we have to be transparent. Exposing ourselves to those we love and trust, those that know the worst about you have your best at heart. We must emit light to those that are broken. When we live a life of transparency it is clear the message we are sending, and easier for those that love us to correct us when we are wrong. Transparency makes it easier to remove obscurities that are keeping us from purity. When we are pure we can clearly express Christ. Whether we live pure or impure lives is what we pass on to our families. Not only to our children, but to those we lead. The battles we leave un-fought are left for those that come after us.

 “There is no judgment against anyone who believes in him. But anyone who does not believe in him has already been judged for not believing in God’s one and only Son. And the judgment is based on this fact: God’s light came into the world, but people loved the darkness more than the light, for their actions were evil. All who do evil hate the light and refuse to go near it for fear their sins will be exposed. But those who do what is right come to the light so others can see that they are doing what God wants.” (John 3:18-21 NLT)

When Moses came down from being in the presence of God, the people of Israel could not handle what shone from his face. They had him put a veil over his face to diffuse the glory shinning from it. We are not like Moses, who put a veil over his face so the people of Israel would not see the glory, even though it was destined to fade away. But the people’s minds were hardened, and to this day whenever the old covenant is being read, the same veil covers their minds so they cannot understand the truth. And this veil can be removed only by believing in Christ. Yes, even today when they read Moses’ writings, their hearts are covered with that veil, and they do not understand. But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. For the Lord is the Spirit, and wherever the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. So all of us who have had that veil removed can see and reflect the glory of the Lord. And the Lord—who is the Spirit—makes us more and more like him as we are changed into his glorious image. (2 Corinthians 3:13-18 NLT) If we expose ourselves to the light we will know the glory of God. The evidence of our exposure should be reflected in our countenance. When Moses was exposed to the glory of God he had to wear a veil. Christ has lifted that veil for us, so people will know that we have been exposed. God wants us to show His glory. So often we try to use the veil to hide our sin, but God wants that veil to be lifted so we can be exposed to the light. The very veil we use to hide our sin is the veil that keeps us from the light. There is only darkness behind this veil. When we stay behind the veil, the supposed glory that we are experiencing is useless. A light kept to yourself will only shine on you and your flaws. When that same light shines on you and then from you is when the true glory of God is revealed. Letting the world see, “Yes I’m flawed. But I still shine!”

“You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden. No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father. (Matthew 5:14-16 NLT)

The Word says that one day we will all be exposed to the light and all our work will be tested.(1 Cor. 3:12) Exposure without covering will cause a burn, exposure with covering will bring healing. Whatever is not covered by Grace is going to be burned. We must not misunderstand the intense power of the light. If not for Grace we would all be burned up by it, because of Grace our exposure brings great healing and freedom. All our dull parts and made shiny, so that when His light shine on us His glory is reflected that much more. What if others see the real me, my sin and scars? Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness cannot extinguish it. (John 1:5 NLT) So long as we let Christ shine on our darkness the accusations of others cannot extinguish us. Let the His light expose the opinions of others and let them be burned away. Let His truth be what shines brightest in your eyes.

For everything that is hidden will eventually be brought into the open, and every secret will be brought to light. (Mark 4:22 NLT)

Ps. 139:11-12
I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light to become night-but even in the darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as the day. Darkness and light are the same to you.

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My Last Hope

Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? I must admit I have to answer yes to this question. Though those thoughts were very brief for me, they still went through my mind. I can clearly remember the thought of ending my life, but not the reason why. I can say for a fact that the situation I was up against passed and I lived through it. I say this not to gain the sympathy of the reader, but to bring to light an attack that has been forged against our generation. I never went through a period of depression or did anything to cause concern among friends and family. I only have a minute understanding of what someone being oppressed with suicidal thoughts goes through. If only your battle was as easy as I make it sound. I say all this to share who helped me though this small battle and my big battles as well.

“A single thread of hope is a very powerful thing” – Author unknown

I saw this quote and immediately thought of Rehab on the wall of Jericho. The only hope she had, was in the faithfulness of God, when she put the scarlet rope out of her window that her house would be protected. The rope itself was not what saved her, but the belief that in doing so God would see her faith. I’m sure she had her doubts. How is a rope going to save my house? This seemingly small act proved to be exactly what God needed to see and to move on her behalf. She had a small glimmer of hope that she would be seen. She believed that if God was big enough to tear down the walls around her, He is big enough to keep her house intact. She knew that even though everything around her fell apart she would be kept intact. This was the security of an entire nation. In putting the rope out there she not only said God would protect her but acknowledged He was going to tear down the walls. She moved her hope from the walls that had been put up to a God that could tear them down.

“No, my hope will go down with me to the grave. We will rest together in the dust!” Job 17:16 (NLT)

Rehab had the same mentality of Job. If the world falls apart or I even die, I will die with Hope in my heart. When everything I have has turned to dust, when my hearts desires seem to slip from my fingers, when the world tells me the darkness is light, it is Hope that I hold on to. When we have nothing to hold on to and we think all is lost hold on to Hope! Not in the hope that my situation will change but in who Hope is, the Hope that conquered the grave. The Hope that gives you a reason to live! Job is not professing that suicide is his only hope, he is saying I will lie down with Hope. I will rest is in knowing that Hope has me in His hands. That until the day I do die I will rest in the confidence of who Hope is. I will rest in Him until the dust settles. Who cares if all is lost? A life without the desires of my heart is livable, but a life without Hope is no life worth living. Find your value in who Hope is not in what you long for. Here’s the deal though, Hope cannot be contained and walls cannot come down without Hope. If we will open the door to Hope’s knock, we can allow Him to knock down our walls and be seen. Asking someone to bring their walls down without Hope is like asking a building be demolished with a pack of toothpicks. No matter how much you poke at it every toothpick will break before the building does. You have to be exposed to Hope before you can be seen. Allow God to see you and He will know your desires, allow yourself to see God and you will know His desires, allow yourself to see you how God sees you and you’ll desire what He desires for you.

The running theory on the fall of Jericho is that there was an earthquake that caused the foundations to give out. To the skeptics, earthquakes are considered an act of God. If we will simply allow God in to shake our foundations, strongholds will fall and the enemy will be defeated. Wait, isn’t Jesus supposed to be my strong foundation? Well I’m glad you asked. Yes. Because of God’s grace to me, I have laid the foundation like an expert builder. Now others are building on it. But whoever is building on this foundation must be very careful. For no one can lay any foundation other than the one we already have—Jesus Christ. 1 Corinthians 3:10-11 (NLT) The foundation of Jesus is laid by Grace, by Hope, not by our works. We have all laid foundations of our own, that is what the Father wants shake. So that when the dust settles we are left holding onto Hope. Build your foundation on Hope and others will be able to build on that same foundation; there are others that depend on the foundation of Hope that you build.

The greatest story of Hope is when God shook the foundation of Jesus Himself. The night that Jesus put all of His hope in the human race. I say this in the sense that He went to the cross with no guarantee that anyone would accept Him, that the plan of God would even work. This is the real beauty in salvation, we get to choose it. God took everything from Jesus even though He did not deserve it. If anyone, Jesus had the right to curse God. He was betrayed by a friend, deserted by the rest and wanted for a crime He did not commit. On top of all that He was rejected by His Father. In the end all Jesus wanted was to be seen by His Father and accepted by His friends. Knowing all this would happen He still submitted to the will of God. He became the foundation of sin and allowed God to shake it till all that was left was Hope. Jesus could not become the Hope of the world until He answered the knock of sin. The knock of sin is not the act of sin but the consequence, to answer that knock is to open death’s door. He answered so we would not have to, He now waits knocking instead. To answer the knock of Hope is to open Life’s door.

Your Father is knocking
Faithfully knocking
Waiting knocking
He knocks again
This time will you let Him in?

If are having suicidal thoughts please put out your scarlet rope! Call a friend, a family member or a pastor. At the very least call the suicide hotline 1-800-273-8255. Talk to someone, find Hope!!

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